Dear Syd,

It scares me to love something this much, and still I do it anyway. It feels like standing too close to the sun, yet I never step away. I am hopelessly in love with you in a way that doesn’t feel safe. I put all my faith in ground that could crumble beneath me, never knowing if it is real, never knowing if it will hold. I reach for something in you that feels like it would never flee, something steady, something certain, but it feels like I am trying to hold water in a clenched fist.