To my Dearest Syd,

I miss you so much, but I can’t seem to talk to you because I feel like I’m just a bother, taking up too much of your time. Honestly, I probably bore you or am some kind of unwanted obligation. But know that my absence doesn’t mean I’m happy without you; it’s quite the opposite. Actually, you seem to be the only thing that brings me joy. I’m suffering, and I wish I could talk to you all the time.